For the last couple of months, I’ve been feeling especially apathetic about most things equestrian. I’m certain some of it is related to the onset of hot, humid summer weather and busy work and personal schedules that have kept me occupied on weekends. I’ve struggled to find the motivation do more than feed the horses and take Gina back and forth to the vet; even cheerful friends asking me to go on trail rides or hack out fail to inspire excitement. The impulse to write has also been absent for much of this year. I’ve been blogging here at Hand Gallop for six years, and writing about a trail ride at a place I’ve ridden before where nothing notable occurred or posting another list of summer essentials feels stale.
My lack of progress with Candy has also contributed to my apathy. She’s made improvements since I began riding her a year ago: she’s much more tolerant of going out in a group, hasn’t kicked another horse under saddle in months, is more steady at the trot and canter, and is more confident on trails. However, I’m frustrated that she’s still counterbent more than she’s not, that she randomly becomes very anxious about going over ground poles, and that the excitement she greeted water with last year has been replaced by nervousness. While I understand the horse training and learning process is non-linear, it’s disheartening to feel like your shiny young(er) horse is regressing. I’ve committed to taking dressage lessons with a local trainer I like and respect, which I’m certain will help some of these issues.
Have you ever felt apathetic about riding? What did you do?